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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
3:52 PM This blog will be under construction. Will change once I have the time to look for new design. A fresh start to begin here. 'Cause my life had just change with a decision that I had just made. Monday, April 07, 2008
6:09 PM Work Work Work Work!!! 24 hrs Work! We are supposed to meet today! You are supposed to put aside your work! You are supposed to make time for me!! Me!!! Not your work!! And now what... you want to bring me along to your buddy house for business talk. Great! Simply Great! Note: Ermmm dear friends and readers. I was writing this based on my emotions after he called me. So maybe I was a bit pissed cause I was hoping to spend the time with him but in the end he call me asking if i want to go to his buddy house for a business talk. In the end, when i asked him about it again. he told me that he cancelled it. And when I asked him why he told me his buddy had a last minute overtime. Ya rite! I knew he was lying and probe him further and he said that he cancelled as it was no point dragging me along when i myself do not want to go. He got that feeling from me when I hesitate before answering me. "So it's my fault la nie..." tats what i replied and he said, "It's just no point in dragging u pe if you not sincere to go." <----- Is he trying to say that it's my fault? I dunno. Sometimes it's difficult to understand him. He just works too much but I know he's under a lot of stress too. 'Cause no case is closed yet for him. I think once he closed a few house cases, then things would be easy. I hope that happens for him. Saturday, April 05, 2008
9:31 AM I'm gonna miss him really bad. Because.... One. We are not meeting during weekends. Two. We are meeting on monday after work. Which is like... 2 to 3 hrs. That is if he meet me on time. Three. He has classes on Wed and Friday. Four. He has some on courses on Tue and Thurs. And then it's the weekends again. Great..... Friday, April 04, 2008
9:06 AM I envy my poly mates... And I'm sooooooo envy of my 2nd sister... And also... envy some of my sec. schl friends... And also... some of the bloggers' life that I used to read... And compared their life to mine... Sigh... Boyfie spent too much with his work. You would probably asked me to tell him how I feel about this right? But that doesnt work either. I did told him, but his response... to earn salary for him. His job life is always difficult. Ever since I knew him way back. Why is it always like that for him? And I can't be selfish and complained to him that he's so into his work. 'Cause I do not want to add more pressure. I really want him to get some cash for himself so I gotta be there for him. But do I need to sacrifice my feelings? We spent so little time together. Compared to my sister's life with her man, I just feel so envy. But I guess, it's better than nothing. Even it's just for a little time, I guess I gotta be glad that at least he still think of me and wants to spend the time with me but due to work, he can't. There's one time, we were supposed to meet after work. Waited for him at Marina Square and he text me he will be late as a last minute meeting just pop up. I waited for him for about 1 hr or so. As I sat outside near the Star Bucks (opposite esplanade) just looking at the stars at night, I feel so pathetic and for no reasons, I just wanna cry. How come I always have to wait for him during our meet ups? Sigh... Oh well, don't worry about me, I'm ok. I just feel like letting my feelings out. ^^ My friends are busy with their own life. I can't complain to them. I just realized that amidst of having a lot of friends in my life, I got none that I can cry a shoulder to. Only boyfie. And if he's busy with his work, I got no one. That bad right... To top it all... I guess I missed him so badly. :) |
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