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Thursday, January 17, 2008
10:24 AM I was reading Cleo Magazine February Issue last night and cross upon this article which really suits my situation with him. It's one of the points in 9 things not worth risking your relationship for. That point is YOUR JOBS. Here what it states. "At different times in our lives, we have different priorities. When career success – with its long hours and perhaps business travel – is top on the agenda, relationships invariably suffer. And all those "I’m working to make a great life for us" justifications seem hollow when all you want is to be with the one you love. It's not that you can't have a relationship and a career. Rather, it's about finding someone whose agenda matches yours. But no one wants to feel like their partner is more loyal to a company than to them. Your boss will only love you when you're contributing to his bonus but your partner will love you regardless. Remember this before your loved one starts to feel as if they’re being made redundant." I find it so true. I worked office hours time. He works from 9 am to 8 or 9 pm especially when he has Roadshow. If he's stationed at the office then, it's office hours. So it's the same... long hours to begin with. Even he has appointments on an OFF DAY and then he will meet me up. And I'm starting to feel redundant. I start to think that his up most and top priority is his work. I started to get the vibe from him that he wants to earn more money so that our future would be better. (Not saying that it's not good, it is actually.) And I need to be more patient and accept the way the situation is. But I know if I do that, it will even hurt me more inside. Even Dan from 98.7 fm told me that people have different priorities in life. That both of us need to talk and find a consensus in where my relationship stands. That me and him need to talk, communicate, and tell him how I feel. That's the same advice my bestie, Fiza and Lin even gave to me. So I know I need to talk things out with him. But it's the time that I couldn't find. When we go out to meet, time just pass by so fast that by the time both of us realize it's 10 plus or 11 and I need to get back at home. The thing is when he's with me, it's different. I get all the attention I have. I get all the love that's he giving to me. So.... What's my problem then? Sunday, January 13, 2008
2:55 PM Is this common in a relationship? Let's say B – Boy & G – Girl. (like doh!) Situation 1 G calls B. B is playing a game on x-box or watching a dvd movie. G wants to talk but B gave a slow response as he is doing something else. G thinks its no point talking when his attention is somewhere else. So G then let him do his thing and put down the phone. Situation 2 B calls G. G is watching a show on cable tv. B wants to talk but G gave a slow response as she is talking to him & watching the show at the same time. B continues to talk. G wants to see this show and tells him. B replied, "Fine. You go and watch your tv!" Hearing that, G then switch off the tv and talked to him. G only puts down when B wants to do something else. Conclusion: Fair? Unfair? Give and take? No understanding? Situation 1 B & G plans to meet for a date after work. G reached the destination. B hasn't arrived yet. G waits for him no matter how long until he reach (let's put it 2 hrs or so.) and messaging him about his whereabouts at the same time. B has some work to do. G understand and waits until he reach. B apologizes when he meet her. G is mad but do not make it a big deal and show lil' bit of frustration. G too does not want the date to be ruin as she wants to spend more time together. So B & G just continue the date. Situation 2 B & G plans to meet for a date after work. B reached the destination. G hasn't arrived yet. B messages G asking her whereabouts and she’s still at work finishing the last touch of her work. B waits for her for a few minutes or so until she reach. G apologize when she meet him. B is mad and frustrated for waiting a long time. G then defends herself as she got to finish her work and the deadline is tomorrow. B then tells G, "You should have planned your time more efficiently to finish this work on time." G just takes it in as she do not want any arguments on their date. So B & G then continue the date. Note: Take it as it happens on every time they meet. Conclusion: Fair? Unfair? Give and take? No efforts in meeting each other up? No understanding of each other's situation? Do we girls have to take all these in and deal with it ourselves? Do we girls have to comfort ourselves when these happen to us? Do guys really understand the feelings that we girls' have? Do you? :( Tuesday, January 08, 2008
9:13 AM Young, 98.7fm Since Diana puts this in the blog. Might as well I do too. :) DY Hey Yng, sry to hear that. Try to think positive, maybe dat girl wasn't right for you. True, you feel sad, but dun think abt it dat much. Spend more time wif frens. Morning without the chirpy Young is no fun...
9:08 AM Budget!! Budget!! :( It's only 8 January and I’m already broke. Bummer! I think I spend a lot on birthday presents on credit! Come to think of it, there were a lot of birthday frens and family last month. That's why!! Man.... No shopping for me this mth. Bummer!! No doubt there's the credit card to use. But then again once salary comes in, no more shopping for next mth. Darn it! Sunday, January 06, 2008
12:26 AM Just got back from Faezah's Wedding Dinner and it was great. Dinner was a okay but I rather think that buffet is much more better. Hehe.. The DJs I think from RIA was funny. Entertaining the whole audience from 7 to 10 pm. DJ KC could even remember the whole of us at Razinah's Wedding. LoL. Pics will be put up soon. Anyway, boyfie came at about 8 plus and dinner had just started. Lucky him! Haha. It was raining anyway so yeah. Due to the weather, he parked at Ang Mo Kio Hub and took a taxi. So yeah, at least he make it. I'm just glad about that. He makes an effort to come at least. :) Saturday, January 05, 2008
10:08 AM To those who keeps asking me to update my blog in any ways, I'm truly sorry about that. Haha... Just sometimes I'm so lazy to update and I'm planning of using multiply instead of blog. But not sure about it. So we'll see... Anyway, today's is my dear best buddy solemnization of marriage and I can't be there!! Bummer! Gotta work and I can't take any M.C. or any leave as I'm still on probation.. But luckily I can go to their wedding dinner later at Tepak Sireh. Phew! Except that my boyfriend had to work and will be late. But I guess that's okay as he still attend after that. It's the wishes that is the most important to the newly weds, Faezah & Aidil. :) Now, all my dearest frens are happy with their partners. When's my turn? This qns always pop up whenever we go out. And my answer... hahah.. I truly dont know. I guess you guys gotta wait for a very long time. I have been patient all the way. I've been trying to talk to him but the last time I talked to him, I got no response from him. He just keeps quiet. So what was I gonna do? I'm not complaining or anything. Just that I think.... *Sigh* I dont know... be aware of what I've gone through? And it's not that I don't love him. I really do... with all my heart. But when you go through of ending up waiting for him during meet ups..... It's like no effort being done and I'm the only one making the effort. Yes, I understand that he's tired working and he needs his rest. But my feelings?? I can't keep quiet all the time right? It's been the same issues over and over. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm not patient enough. Maybe. I hope I have more strength to do that. It's 11.22 am now... Faezah must be in the mid of her solemnization. :) :) |
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