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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
9:38 AM Darn... I feel like going for a massage. My body is now aching from swimming in the sea, floating and trying to catch the waves at Changi beach yesterday. Must be because it's been a long time since i swim. Correction!!! It has been ages... Not a long time... The last time I swam in the sea or swimming pool was when I was studying in primary & secondary school. My gdness!! But anyway, I totally destress myself yesterday and had a lot of fun. Took 2 days leave from work for this outing. All the stress vanished inside me when I went swimming and relax over there. It felt so good with the stress out of the way. Well... Only for a while, I bet when I returned from work, there's so mannNNny things to do. So.... My cousin fetch us from our house in their new big car that can suits 6 people. Its that a van?? Oh well... I dont know. When we reach there, the first thing that they did was to set up the tent that can fit 10-12 men. I busied myself by helping out my auntie setting up the foldable table & chair. And also preparing the food that were prepared by my auntie and my mum. Mum cooked Mee siam goreng and auntie cooked Nasi Lemak with Chicken. There's a changi village hawker centre nearby, so if the food's not enough, we know where to find food. Once everyone had their stomach filled, they all can't wait to swim in the sea including me... My cousins and I spent a lot of time in the sea and because of that I got sunburn on my hand!!! I wore a long sleeve shirt with long pants so just imagine how my hand had looked like. It's like my hand was dipped in a chocolate sauce and the upper arm was fair in colour.. But hey, I still had fun!! Thats the important thing... Hehehe... Went back around 5 pm on Monday and everyone was so quiet in the car on the way back. Yeap! All of us are so darn tired... We all had lots of fun. So here I am on a tuesday morning feeling sore and aching especially on my shoulders, writing this using my sis's laptop on my bed. Lucky I got one more day to relax myself!!! So I better make use of it wisely.... starting now and this means that I will stop writing... right about now. Saturday, March 05, 2005
9:33 PM I am sOooo darn pissed off today with someone. And that someone is MeeEee myself!!! Remember I told that I have to attend to my collegue's wedding event on 5th March. Well it turns out that I did not go after all. Bet you want to know what happened right? Here's how the story goes. I was supposed to go with my mum 'cause 2 of my collegues could not make it leaving me and another one of my colleagues. But that colleague is going with his wife & kids and so that leaves me alone. Anyway me & mum had already went out and reached there at 4 pm. But to my dismay, I had found out that the event was held at her house. Not under her block... Sheeshhh!! I was like under her block with my mum hesitating whether I should go up or not. There I was feeling like a lost girl in a big jungle. I felt so alone!! I mean I do not even know anyone up there besides the bride. Furthermore, my mum do not even know any of these people. I do not mind if it's held under her block but at her home with all her unknown friends and relatives... I would be having a panic attack of not knowing what to do if I were to go up. Apart from the above feeling that was going thru inside me, I decided to go up at all. And so I took the elevator and went up. Say some prayers to make sure everything would have gone alright but ONE LOOK at her house with lots of people outside her door made me walked straight to the stairs. My mum just followed me behind knowing that we are not going in. That's it. I finally had chickened out!!! Angry tears started to flow as I am so darn angry at myself. I just walked towards the bus stop, with my mum trying to comfort me saying that my colleague would understand my situation as to why I did not attend her invitation. I kinda vent my anger at her by talking back at her in a high tone and also not answering to her qns. People must be thinking that me & my mum was having an argument. I was in my own world thinking about what I have done all the way back home. If I had someone to go along with me who also knows the bride, things would be different. It's not that I blamed my colleagues for not coming with me. The real fact is that I dont blame anyone. I blamed myself for being such a coward!!! I could have just gone to her house and mingle but nOOooo. Instead of doing that, I let my feelings take over me and went back home. Only one word can describe this. Pha-the-tic!!! p/s: I decided to buy a wedding gift for my colleague when she comes back to work and include a card with my personal message inside. Hope that will make do with my absence on that day. And I gotta think of something for the way I treat towards my mum today. Maybe I bring her shopping just to show how sorry I am.... Tuesday, March 01, 2005
8:38 PM Yup... New layout. Decided to change the layout to correspond with the new year, 2005. I know, I know... Its like March 2005 already but the work in the office had been keeping me busy until I gotta come back on both sat & sun to finish up some work!!! Now you see why I dont have the time to blog. But nevertheless, I will still be blogging once in a while. Gonna be busy during the weekends attending my collegue's wedding ceremony on 5th Mar & my sec schl mate on 6th Mar. This means that I will be eating "Nasi Minyak" on both days!! Darn.. there goes my diet. Anway, talking about my sec schl fren's wedding invitation... It happens that she's gonna held it with her big brother. When her parents came to our house to invite me and my family, I expected my schl mate to be the only one to get married. But NooOOOoo... Her big bro is also getting married. It was a shocking news to me as we bumped into each other frequently under the block and exchange a few words, but he didnt mention anything about getting married. You see... I used to go out with him a few times. And after some time, we lost contact. Bumped into him sometimes on the way from work and have a conversation. But seriously I thought that he was still single. I guess I'm wrong... Well then, good for him then for having someone to share his life with. It seems that most of the friends I know are getting into the marriage thing. My poly mate, my sec. schl mate, three guys that I used to know... Seeing them all really makes me think about my future. Time fly by so fast and age is catching up. How can I NOT be thinking about how my future is gonna be like? Hmm.... Hey buddy, in case you are reading this, now I totally understand how you felt when you told me you kept thinking and worried about your future... remember the talks we had? *laughs* |
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