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D.O.B: 21 December 1982
Career: Accounts Officer
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Thursday, November 11, 2004

1:51 AM

Hmm... it's been a long time since I update this blog of mine. Been busy with work as usual. Sometimes, I'm even too tired to on the computer and log in. Having a rough week nowadays... Even when Hari Raya's coming, work has been piling more and more in my schedule. Sometimes, I feel like quiting... I just feel like packing up my things and get out from that place. Free from the stress and burden... *Sigh* But what to do... I can't do that. This is reality man... Jobs are hard to find nowadays. Can't throw away all my hard work that I had done in that firm after one year.. Just have to deal with it like everyone did... So stop complaining, Asilah...

Anyway, went to break fast with my irc chatters from #kita-kita on 6 Nov. It's been a long time since I met up with them. I used to hang out with them almost like every week when I'm still searching for a job. I bet it's because I got nothing to do. But since I had started my job, I've been busy to hang out with them and these puts a strain on my friendship with them.

Seriously on that day, I felt like the person whom I used to be with them last time, no longer exists in me. When they were making jokes at other people and laughs like no other business, this attracts attention & I feel like putting myself away from them telling the audience that I'm not with them. Eventhough to them, it's just a joke but to me... It's not very good & wise to make fun of people... Sorry guys but sometimes, I think I can't hang out with you guys... Hanging out as in lepak with you all & making crap jokes.. I mean it's not sweet for a tudung gerl like me making crap jokes and laugh out loud... But meeting once in a while to eat dinner or go shopping is fine by me. As long as there's something to do...

Let's say that I'm a totally different person and I've changed in attitude wise. You guys would probably seen it in me... Maybe it's the working life... Or maybe.. it's because of the age gap... But nevertherless, I'm still who I am...