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Wednesday, July 28, 2004
9:36 PM It's hard to let go of somebody whom you like a lot & spent the time with that somebody... Furthermore if he fits in what you have in mind for a guy... Eventhough, the other party is the bad guy but I still can't get him outta of my heart. I do not know what I had done wrong to get this kind of treatment. Until now, I still dont know the reason... Is it my fault or is it not? I'll always wonder all the times... I've been trying to move on but maybe i'm doing it all wrong. Been putting a lot of my effort at work & never ever trust guys again or i'm always full of doubts about them. Because of him, I'm like this... People looked at me and think that I'm always happy but really, really, really deep down... I'm still picking up & glueing my million shattered pieces of heart. Upon his name or any memories with him, there's a tendency that this fragile broken heart will shattered again. I just can't bear to hear his name or even something that gotta relate to him... 'cause the result would be me thinking about my past and wondering again what I had done wrong. Sometimes I'm just so sick of asking why why and why.... pondering... wondering... remembering... and crying over a stupid person (I know he's not worth crying but my sensitive side always wins the battle...) I know it's not only me who experience this in life but who doesn't... Found this phrase in my sis blog which is "Keep walking ahead.... and never looked back..." Well, I guess if I have to move on, I gotta keep walking ahead... But then maybe I got the tendency to looked back... Maybe thats why I feel this way... But Insya'allah, I would be strong and deal with this... Amin |
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