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Saturday, January 05, 2008

10:08 AM

To those who keeps asking me to update my blog in any ways, I'm truly sorry about that. Haha... Just sometimes I'm so lazy to update and I'm planning of using multiply instead of blog. But not sure about it. So we'll see...

Anyway, today's is my dear best buddy solemnization of marriage and I can't be there!! Bummer! Gotta work and I can't take any M.C. or any leave as I'm still on probation.. But luckily I can go to their wedding dinner later at Tepak Sireh. Phew!
Except that my boyfriend had to work and will be late. But I guess that's okay as he still attend after that. It's the wishes that is the most important to the newly weds, Faezah & Aidil. :)

Now, all my dearest frens are happy with their partners. When's my turn? This qns always pop up whenever we go out. And my answer... hahah.. I truly dont know. I guess you guys gotta wait for a very long time.

I hate P.M.S! hahaha. Cause that's when I got worried about my future and start to think about it. With the situation I am in now and his own too really makes me wonder how our future's gonna be like. And I hate when all these moods starts to make me a different person 'cause I will start saying the wrong things and end up arguing with him. And then I'll be regretting what I said and make an effort to make it alright. But then again, I'm just voicing out. If I make it alright, that means I'm taking it all in. You know.. like give and take.

I have been patient all the way. I've been trying to talk to him but the last time I talked to him, I got no response from him. He just keeps quiet. So what was I gonna do? I'm not complaining or anything. Just that I think.... *Sigh* I dont know... be aware of what I've gone through? And it's not that I don't love him. I really do... with all my heart. But when you go through of ending up waiting for him during meet ups..... It's like no effort being done and I'm the only one making the effort. Yes, I understand that he's tired working and he needs his rest. But my feelings?? I can't keep quiet all the time right?

It's been the same issues over and over. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm not patient enough. Maybe. I hope I have more strength to do that.

It's 11.22 am now... Faezah must be in the mid of her solemnization. :)

"All the best to u my dear. May your marriage be always and forever. Be happy always.
:)